Feel terrible today

I feel terrible tonight~~~

For my spoken English, for the chances that I missed~

What if I had practiced more in English Corner at NTU, what if i attented the English class together with Qi, what if...

There is no if.

Some time the chance is only once, one time in your life.

If you cannot overcome iBT, what else, can you over come?
An exam that i fight with more than 5 times.
the money you spent is more than ...

What if...

I can nothing to myself, for my fault.

Wait the day, when i was able to express myself fluently in English.
How many times should i wait before the sky is clean?

I donot know, and I am not sure. It is so sad for me.

for arcadia.

my god~~~
the mircale coming ? I didnot know.